Writing Again

I had a shot story idea the other day. It just came out of no where. Been working off and on with it the past week, hoping that it will go somewhere. Once I am done I plan to seek some sort of publication, but if that doesn't happen, then it will get posted here. You know, I am pretty excited about this! -Melly

Emotions

Reading into things
Sometimes I can't help it
Things will never be
The way they once were
The way I want them to be

Everything has changed
Every memory is a pain in my heart
Tears constantly threaten to fall
I am no longer who I want to be
All of me is lost

Over and melodramatic
I know these emotions are over the top
I cannot suppress how I feel
But I don't know how to let it out
Shaking and sobs are not how I want to deal

I am tired of the pain
Had hoped this would ease it
I am less confused
Less worried, But more hallow
And afraid of completely falling

I can never again be who I want to be
You managed to take that from me
My entirety is now labeled
I no longer get to keep secrets
You shattered my entire world

I hope to someday know me again
To feel comfortable in my own skin
How I long to be happy
Not hiding from the world
Are you happy with what you've done?

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Have I built up these walls so high

That no one sees what's underneath?

Eyes brimming with tears

Continue to go unnoticed

In some ways it's easier

Avoiding a breakdown

But how does no one notice?

Is that glimmer of hope

Still shimmering in my eyes?

Perhaps I really can act

Everything could be okay

If no one asks me

Then no one will ever know

There are so many layers

Covering everything I'm hiding

But I can only stand strong for so long

I’m coming closer to collapse

It's more than I can take

Optimism can only take me so far

Perhaps this is the end

Maybe the world's cruelty

Has finally won.

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Clearly there is something not right.

Something is missing,

Otherwise, wouldn't I be enough?

Why would you be seeking someone else?

Lying?

Hiding things behind my back?

What other lame excuses have I fallen for?

What else am I missing?

This has been way to easy-

And now I am questioning everything.

I no longer trust anything you do or say.

I can't even say with certainty 

If I am still in love.

I want to be.

But if this has all been a lie...

Where does that leave me?